I honestly believe that God exposed my situation so I would stop. You know how they say that there is a positive in everything? This is my positive. It has caused me to re-evaluate my entire life. I "lost" the real me - the person my wife fell in love with. I know that deep down I am a good person regardless of the mistakes that I've made. I am doing everything that I can do to improve the person that I am. I, too, lost my wife and my best friend. I HOPE that my situation is temporary. I BELIEVE that it is fixable. Unfortunately the only thing i can do externally is wait. I don't have the opportunity to do anything else. My wife can't see any of the changes that I have and continue to make. I need to learn to be patient.
