Is she is or is she ain't (my baby)?

[sleeper]

Funny you should ask. There hasn't been much to report until today.

X has been very complimentary of my parenting of late. At times it has caught me off guard. She often thanks me for being such a "wonderful father", etc.

She has been initiating activities for the four of us together more and more. Simple things like lunch together. This weekend she invited me to go with her and kids to a carnival. This was the first invite other than lunch. I balked at first not knowing what to make of it or what I wanted to do. She immediately backed off and seemed a little irritated that I might turn her down. I ended up going and we had a great time. She called afterward and thanked me for going and also for our, "wonderful children, so full of life." It's like a new alien has posessd my X in the past couple of months.

So today the other shoe dropped (insert old time radio sound effect of something falling; "bam!").

X picked up kids from school and I met her at a park to pick kids up as it is my week. X has been all too available and willing to do such things of late. After leaving, DD asked if I and X were "fighting." I told her no and asked why. She said X was fighting with someone on the phone and she concluded it must have been OM since it wasn't me. I asked why and she responded, "X wants to be best friends with OM but OM just wants to be friends." She continued telling me X told her a week or so ago to be sure how a boy feels about you before dating him. How rich.

This segues with my observation of late that OM hasn't been around much. In the beginning I believed X was using him and later I thought they were using each other but now it seems OM was using X. I wouldn't be surprised if OM already has another chick lined up. What a POS. Part of me wants to punch him in the nose for this. How twisted is that? But I shouldn't be so judgemental. What if he has had a change of heart, has seen the error of his ways?

Is it Karma?

Is it Newtonian? ("For every action there is an equal and opposite reaction".)

Methinks maybe the recent niceness towards me by X is an attempt to maintain me as plan "B" or possibly a reaction born of her insecurities. I'm not entertaining the idea that she might want me back.

I think I need to go dimmer.

I think I might speed things along by going on a date.