my story

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I have been pretty busy the last few days. I guess that is a good thing. Low stress for me in terms of the relationship/communication with H, maybe because he was unreachable and I didn't have to worry. Talked to him a couple times today, I was friendly, but not clingy or emotional. His sister wants to get together with me, not sure if I can do that or not, it seems really painful, I suppose I should do it sooner or later. I hate this. I wish I knew what was really in the cards, then I could not worry, wait it out, get over it, move on, what ever, just don't like this not sure which way I want to go feeling either.