He said something about wanting to kill himself because of you.
That's black black depression talking and makes me wonder how much of the other things he said is also depression.
Believe me, I've been in that frame of mind before and there was no way I could get out of it myself without going on Zoloft.
Hon, I'm sorry he's said such hurtful things to you. But if he's talking about doing harm to himself, then he's really angry at himself not you.
I do wonder though if he was threatening to harm you as well in that conversation.
I don't know if it would help you, but would you consider calling a crisis line and talking to someone? They are trained to know what things are just threats and what is sincerly meant.
That's all I can think of at the moment, but I hope others with more wisdom will pop in here with some ideas for you.
I'm sorry you are hurting. Sending you a warm comforting hug.
