Pam,

I've been having a rough time for the past couple of days, especially yesterday . All I can compare my feelings with is be a branch that is about to snap off.

I kept waking up last night because my heart and lungs felt like they had forgotten how to work together. I suppose that was just an accumulative effect.

Lately, I've been noticing that my Mom is looking like I do when I'm around my H. She trys to look like everything is alright but hurts because she doesn't understand why I'm distant and conflicted. This is especially difficult for her due to her Alzheimer's disease. She is obviously practicing "DDBing "(Down Daughter Busting).
This morning it just broke my heart. Poor thing, she shouldn't have to be going through this crap with me.


Shiney,

"P.S. Pam, back off on sending weight to Jeannine, I offered first! ... "

That's the first time I've laughed in two days! You're good medicine.

I haven't heard from the dr. yet. I still have that colonoscopy and endoscopy to get through on the 8th of August and I figure he's waiting for everything to be completed before calling. Till then, I'm not going to worry. I'm just focusing on getting some meat on my bones at this point.

PnT,

Thanks for checking on me. Just knowing that there are people out there who care is a boon to my stamina.
I'll be checking on you soon too.

Jeannine

Jeannine