Thank you SPM and trapt. I am so greatful to have people to help me through this. I will do all in my power to keep up the PMA. As you both know this is extremely hard to do. I keep thinking about our weekend and using that as a tiny glimpse of hope for the future.
My W knows that she is confused, she has flat out told me sorry that she is confused. And that she doesn't know why she can't figure out what she wants. She also finds a reason not to be home just sitting around together, she says there is too much tension. But really she doesn't want to have to deal with her inner confusion. The bright side is that she said she just needs space for now and that she does not want a D. So until she says that, I will keep the faith and even then I know it doesn't mean it is over.
I will indeed think of my wonderful beautiful children that deserve me to try everything I can to keep our family in tact and happy.
Thank you both again and I hope I can help you all in some way soon.
Married 10/12/2002 Me 35 Ring On Her 29 Ring Off D 4 S 2 Don't know if I am in love with you 10/7/08 Kinda Separated 10/7/08 EA/OM 6/6/08
my current thread: http://www.divorcebusting.com/forums/ubbthreads.php?ubb=showflat&Number=1623276&page=1&fpart=4