Just got home from a 6 day meeting in Palm Springs last night, it was fantastic. It felt great getting away and really enjoying life. Went to the gym once or twice a day and did a little partying with some very good people. The weather was amazing! 95 degrees during the day and 60 at night.
For some reason, on the way home I started feeling a bit sad. Downtime on long plane rides can be tough. I started thinking about how I missed coming home to my beautiful house and being greeted by my 7 year old daughter. She would also yell "daddy," and then search my bags for a surprise. She always knew I would bring something back for her. What a cute kid.
I feel could about the divorce being final and I do not miss my ex at all. I miss my home and my daughter. Fortunately we are seeing each other quite often and she is doing great.
The big thing that is holding me back from getting on with my life is that I still pay the mortgage on a home that is not selling. It is a real beauty, but it is very difficult to sell an expensive home in this market.
My therapist says, "leave this one to the universe." It is a beautiful home in a great neighborhood that will "eventually" sell. From a financial perspective is a wash because I do not pay child support or rent until the home sells.
I just cannot believe that I am still in a position where I must "crash" with a friend. I really want my own place, but cannot afford to pay rent on an apartment and the mortgage on our home. I really feel "boxed" in.
I really attractive woman has reached out to me about dating and I am still a little reluctant because I do not have my own place.
