Mourn the loss that your life thus far didn't turn out like you planned. Work through it. As you celebrate your 50th, consider it half time for your adult life. Head into the locker room, figure out what went wrong, figure out the best game plan to counter it for the second half, and get back out there and make it happen. Plenty of time left on the clock. Remember that you have a great group of fans cheering you on from the sidelines.
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Thanks 4kids, There's a lot of wisdom in your words.
I still feel 30 in my head. And luckily my body, though out of shape, is still pretty healthy. No big wrinkles or other age related illnesses. One of the good genetics I got from my Dad was that if we take care of ourselves, the men in our family age very well.
I won't say I 'look 40' but I still have hair that isn't gray and if I get it colored I do look 40ish.
I know I won't be alone forever. I mourn the fact that W wasn't who I thought she was - or actually she WAS who I thought she was, I just thought that she would grow up. I had no idea I would crash and burn and find myself unsupported and alone for so many years.
I think that's what hurts the most. Knowing I was left to die.
