max, I know it's misery right now. but you did the right thing by coming clean. that took a lot of guts. your conscience is clean. you don't have to hide behind it anymore. I admire you for that. I wish that my wife would just do the same. your husband really has no idea what it took for you to try this for him. I wish that I could slap him around some, so that he would understand what he has in you.