K, I guess to answer the question of what happened today, I think I have taken a step toward D in my heart and mind. I reflected on the things H has said, that he is not attracted to me physically anymore, he won't miss holding me/touching me, he still blames me and resents me for so many things, I just don't see how it could ever work while he is in this mindset. I won't file, not yet anyway, but I think maybe I am steeling myself a little/a lot at this time.....
This song gives me hope. I love the pictures, it shows us the great things we do have, kids, friends,etc. and it shows the hope that we will love again, too.
On the literal side of what happened today, H called this afternoon to say he was boarding his plane and he would be home around the time we head out for Karate, he will be home in time for supper, etc. Talks like we are still just a regular old family..........
