sorry you are feeling the anger, max. see a counselor. are you sure that "BEGIN TO HATE HIM" is a good strategy?
This is going to sound like a 2x4, but your statement made something very clear to me. you wrote: H is not answering my calls or texts which frustrates the hell out of me. It feels like he is trying to prove something or tell me something ......
What's clear is, you are not dealing with this very well.
There are 75 different reasons he may not have answered his phone or called you back. But your response to his silence shows that you need to detach from him. It is not always about you. Is it really likely that everything he does is just to send a message to you? Maybe he has his own thing going on and doesn't want to answer the phone? Maybe his phone is misplaced? Maybe it's out of batteries? Maybe he's in a movie theater? There are lots of possible reasons, but you feel pretty certain he is doing it as a way to send you a message.
Look, that's not reasonable. It just isn't. It's self-centered and unrealistic.
You are very wrapped up with him, what he is doing and not doing. You need to watch your own feet.
Listen, Max, I don't mean to be unfriendly, but snap out of it! Your H is not there to answer to your call. Ok? This is clear. My perspective is: You are at home Saturday because you didn't take care of your own plans. Is there a lesson here? H will not rescue you, will not fill up your weekend nights for a while. it's up to you. Next weekend, if you don't want to be alone, what are you going to do?
