It was maybe the worst day for me ever in terms of hanging out. He took down the picture of us that was by his side of the bed--I didn't mention this to him although I almost did. He answered everything I said with one-word responses, and in bed every time he accidentally touched me, he moved away so quickly it was ridiculous. This was the only time that he didn't grab my nose, his usual sign of affection.
This was his idea to go to Galway today, and his idea to hang out yesterday. He has been treating me like he can't stand me. I am searching really hard for positives, because this time there haven't been the actions that there usually are to dispute his words. We did not spend time together in the house at all, and in the mall he didn't talk to me at all, except a little after the movie.
I need so much strength to get through today and tomorrow. I just wish I knew what I could do to try to make things happier for him. I know that I haven't done anything pressuring or stressful. I haven't asked him how he's doing, haven't asked him to do anything, have just steered clear etc. He wants there to be more to our marriage, but to get to that point he needs to be OK with being around me...
Ugh. I am going to try and exercise this morning before our drive so that maybe I can feel a little better. I didn't really sleep at all last night...
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Me:34 H:36 M:5 years T: 8 years Bomb: 07/17/08 I want to be separated for 6 months--I don't know what I want the outcome to be S 07/28/08-11/08/08 Living together ~7 months D Possibly busted?!?!!!
