I know that not hearing anything is so very hard on you. I went almost two months without hardly any communication from my W. It drove me up the wall. I wanted soooo much to talk to her or get an email from her. It was one of the worst experiences I have ever had in my life. After about two months I finally met my W for to have lunch on her birthday. That meeting was as good as it had been bad not hearing from her.
I do not have as much experience as some of the others around here, but maybe if you stopped trying to contact her. Let her think about not hearing from for a while. It may conjure up some curiosity in her mind. Right now she knows that you want her back and she may not be worrying about you not being there as a safety net. I do not know. You have tried very hard to communicate with her; maybe by stopping she may contact you.
BUT BEWARE, It will even more difficult on you not to communicate with her. Going Dark is a very, very hard thing to do, at least for me it was. I was scared that she would think I did not care or I was really scared that she would forget about me and us. I could not employee any of the 180s, or to show her I was making progress in making changes. For me it seemed to work. I am not out of the woods by a long shot, but I am closer now than I was 5 months ago.
Hang in there and keep your eye on the green and out of the bunkers. VS
