Back to life, back to reality?

[optimistwife]

Well, if you have made it through today and it was just akward- then you made it through today! Yeah. Celebrate! Yup, it sucked compared to fantasy romance, but he didn't pull the plug today. You kept it under control (even if inside you are unravelling).

I have been on many of these outings with H- because we have been intermittantly seeing eachother the whole time. But there have been plenty of times I have felt on trial. Felt fake. Thinking that this is not how I want to live, afraid that if I do one thing wrong it is over.

It may take a couple weird dates before he settles down some. before you start to feel more comfortable again. You are doing great- just by doing what you are doing.