i am really really emotional this morning. I cried all the way through 'Queer eye for the straight guy' while eating breakfast. It feels like the first week after he left. God tears are running down my face as I write this.
Let me list what I am so upset about in order to try to get it out:
Loss of family. Children dont have a hands on dad at there beck and call How are they modeling there own futures, as they live through this I have no companion. I have no one to share everyday things with. I cant see the future. I dont know what it looks like I dont want to be alone. i am so tired of being sad. i am tired of all the work. I am tired of all the head space this fills up as I panic that I am not being attentive enough to childrens needs.
