Convinced my M is over; trying to move forward.

[Little Engine]

Then it hit me, there's perfect proof that what we do as parents has an effect on our children even into adulthood.

These people who believe that the kids will be oK and they're resilient; aren't fully aware.

My greatest frustration!

I wish my W could see what she is doing to our kids. S9 already knows that his Mom is messing up, D6 has it pretty well figured out I think. The only one who doesn't is my W and OM, they are off in dreamland thinking that their new blended family is going to be the Brady Bunch.

Two weeks into their relationship I found an e-mail from W to OM that said, "I look forward to growing old with you and our families being together." What a kick to the gut that was! I found that on a Wednesday and she filed for D the following Friday. His reply was so syrupy, "You hold my heart in the palm of your hand. We've shared more love in two weeks than most people know in a lifetime." In W's mind I'm sure it plays out as she was driven to do it because I was such a bad H. I just wish I knew what the future held for my kids.

How can my W just walk away thinking that we exercised every available option to save our M? How could she be so selfish as to put herself before our kids?

So absolutely frustrating for me.