SC, you are right on the money. Basically, I was jolted into reality by a discussion that my boss had with me about getting someone to help with the kids, the EAP program being an option, and trying to keep a steady work schedule. I read between HIS lines and decided that I had to do for myself, all of the house/kid responsibilities. Because the W was out until whatever time she would get home and make me late. This was happening since last May. I NEED my job and I can't let her lifestyle put my job in jeopardy.
Once I realized that I seized control; all of my stress disappeared. This allowed me to have much better PMA, I don't bark at my W anymore, and I'm a whole lot easier going around the kids. So, I don't have any expectation of any assistance from her. That's why I know that I WILL be ok if we D. I'm already doing everything and I'm surviving and I'm happy. If she decides that she wants to return fully to the M; then at least I'll be in a much better place to work on things.