Hi ST, your post spoke to all of us. It is funny you mentioned perserverance, I just posted that word on T2L post2.

I have been trying to turn this over to God and i do struggle still trying to control, (Txmom and me are the same that way)
I would like to do DBing but I had confrontation with H and OW last week and now the phones are silent. My D15 does not want to talk/see him at all and I do not want to force her. I know my emotions are so raw that I think detaching is the right thing to do for right now.
I want to DB but I think this will help to keep serentiy, and calm my emotions than I can be more effective in the future. I pray to God to continue working on my H and in the meantime I will work on myself.

Me 53
H 50
D16, D29
M 22 years
bomb 7/08 INH - alien pod replaces H
8/08 - OW (direct report), I work there also
bomb II - H moves 10/1
expose ow 10/22
D to be final 9-09