Sorry, I have so many things bottled up inside of me and I have learned to keep so much to myself. [/quote] Mwg, Do you feel disloyal to your H when you get impatient with his drinking and attitude.I think after 4 years of living this way you are entitled. Where you not working today, what did he do for the 5 hours he was at your place? How do you see Gods perfect timing coming about? Your H will stop drinking, get a job and move home or your son will move out then H will get a job, stop drinking and move home? What do you see as your part in bringing about God's perfect timing? You have absolute faith that God will bring your H home is that the same as restoring your marriage? Do you ever think God is waiting for you to be proactive in the bringing of your H home or is it enough to pray? I don't expect you to answer the questions but maybe think on them. Yes your h will look worse as the days, weeks, months years go by if he continues his drinking and lifestyle. There is only one certainty to that and it will lead to his demise and you being a widow.Would that count as God's perfect timing. Impatience is sometimes what we need to change us and that can sometimes alter how others view their situation. I hope something gets resolved on some level sooner rather than later. Please don't feel guilty for being impatient.Your h is exercising his free will as he knows right from wrong. You have choices to even within the boundaries of faith.
