Trying2Live-Post #3

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Visit went good. He came in and hugged the kids then came and hugged me-DD17 noticed it too.

So he cheated on the OW w/me again(sorry for the TMI). Still aware that it can go either way, I have hope but no expectations, he's still in and out of fog.

He showered here and left his toothbrush. I tried to give it back and he said I'll just leave it here I have more. We have a nice time dinner with the kids and visiting. He left about 10PM with an hour drive.
I asked him when he left when is he coming back, and he responds you mean you want a liar and cheater back? I say no I meant to visit. I wish I had said of course as long as there is no contact with OW. But there is always next time. My tentative Plan B(per the book Surviving An Affair by Willard Harley) will go into effect Nov 14 or 15th which ever works out best. Probably the 15th.
I am a little nervous about the cutting him off part but understand the necessity. It's been nice having what used to be my H around.
I know that either way, I'm going to be ok. I know I can do Plan B because I cut him off before. So we will see him tomorrow for a bit at sons game and then he is coming over on Sunday for the afternoon.

Anyways, just staying focused. I look at it this way and for all of us daily. We know our target. Never take your eyes off the target, must have patience and perseverance. Need a steady hand and good vision to be able to nail the target. A marksmen doesn't become good without lots of practice and extreme focus under immense pressure. Shooting to win does not happen with sloppy aim, lack of focus on target, lack patience, lack strength and patience under pressure. Remember everyday is practice. shoot to win, the target is H but the target is your self too.