I'm ok. I know what you mean about feeling strange going by yourself. I had that very strongly for a while, almost like I was embarassed to be out alone. Like I was going out (I can only imagine this) with only one leg. You know? Self-conscious.
But that feeling has been dissipating lately. I go to movies by myself. I go to dinner myself. I miss companionship but I am not embarassed any more. I did my best to keep the family together. I tried. It's not together now. Ok, I can deal with that.
I think it is a waste. We are losing family time and oppotunities. Peees me off. Yes, that's why you need a new life! Don't waste time. Use it. Did you ever have this wish that you had time to read some old classic books? Or maybe you always wanted to try your hand at making pottery. Or you want to learn to draw? Or play the harmonica? Belly dancing? There's opportunity right in front of you.
Why is it that some days are easier than others ? I don't know but I have some ideas of what makes a hard day. The day AFTER I had my kids all weekend - is a hard day. The day AFTER I see friends or have a really good day, is harder. The comparison is hard.
I had some friends visit for a few days. The empty house after they left was quite a contrast. It was hard then.
It's also harder for me when I don't sleep enough, or if I do not exercise, or have enough fun. what about you, notice any patterns?
