Gypsy--got your message; I'll get in touch tomorrow.
The hard part comes in cycles, and will swirl back out again (like the turds in the toilet!).
I remember the mental resistance I would have against people saying "Its over, move on, he is selfish..." I kept clinging to who I knew, not wanting to admit that that was another time, a different person and set of circumstances. You come to accept it in bits and pieces, as you can. You can't rush through any of this, but know that you have been doing SO well...