it is so good to hear from you. thank you for visiting
where, that is an excellent question. Will I move to new york once I graduate? I am honestly not totally sure I am going to graduate in december. (fingers crossed)!!! Also, I am not sure I am ready to leave ATL because even though ATL was always temporary, I don't feel like I've accomplished everything I hoped to accomplish here, and I don't feel like I have a good plan for what to do next. So I would like to stay here in ATL in the spring even if I do graduate. if I can't pull that off financially I could move back to with my parents in Virginia (something I have avoided ever since graduating from high school) and commute to NYC for cello lessons.
My original plan was to take auditions in the spring for schools in Boston (4 hours from NYC) or NYC, and then move to school in the fall. Then I realized this week that the school in NYC I REALLY wanted to go to has a pre-audition deadline of Nov 15th. There is, like, NO WAY I can get the materials together on top of everything else I have to do to try to graduate.
So now my future is a big question mark. I have been doing a lot of soul-searching about who I want to be, what I want to become, etc, etc, and I will try to keep it short. From a "transformer" perspective, I feel like I must do what is right for me. Coincidentally until recently I thought that would be trying to go to school in NYC, for my own reasons... and happen to be really close to B! But now, I'm just really confused!! From a "DB" perspective, it seems like totally obvious that I should try to live in the same city as B. But if I moved there for no other reason but to be near him and it didn't work out, i would feel totally lame!!!!!! Honestly NYC totally scares the crap out of me and I feel like I might be eaten alive if I live there! It seems like the ideal would be to happen to be there for my OWN reasons. But I really don't know where I should be to bloom and reach my full potential, or where I belong.
