You are in the right place for support. This site is very helpful and full of resources and wonderful people who are experiencing the same ups and downs that you are.
Read as much as you can. Come here to vent. If I hadn't found this place last year, I don't know where I would be emotionally right now...but the people here have helped me tremendously. I am stronger and more prepared for whatever comes my way than I would have been.
This rollercoaster ride is not fun and it will take time, patience, endurance. You will have to be stronger than you have ever imagined! Be good to yourself. Try to focus on you.
Hugs!
BA
Me:43 H:48 M:24 yrs T: 26 yrs 2 kids ILYNILWYA 8-07 - MOW 9-07 H moved out 8-2-08 Back 8-18-08 Affair continues Back home but not emotionally