Well, H decided to "stay" about a month before he had to leave for a year deployment. That would have been in April. He was gone from May '07 through May '08. He's been home about six months now. Not only are we post-bomb, but we are post-been away for a year & have to get to know each other again / learn to live w/ each other & 3 little boys again etc.
It's been interesting. We've had our ups & downs. I'm pretty much over most of it, but the trust is still lacking. I still always have this feeling he is going to cheat again, whether it's just an EA/talking to some girl or whatever.
Turns out he cheated on me the first time he was deployed when our oldest (8) was about 18 mnths. During d sitch, he & I BOTH wondered if he just didn't have the capability to be faithful.
On the other hand, he and I both know that if he did cheat again, I would not stick around. No ifs, ands, or buts. But then again, we all know one of the mottos around here -- you never know how you are going to react or what you are going to do in a certain sitch until it actually happens.
Me: 38 H: 35 S4, S5, S10 Bomb 01/07 Wanted D - nothing would change his mind Numerous A's prior to D bomb; EA prior/during D bomb Piecing 04/07 Deployed for a year 05/07 Still Piecing 2010 M 11 yrs 05/10
