Ok I may have blown it......
Feeling mixed up right now, Evil thought running through my head again.......

Wife came in and said “I don't know what you are planning that weekend.
Me: I was trying to save our marriage.
Wife: well if you think I was going to just say let's have sex I can't promise you anything
Me: If Sex was all I wanted I could go out tonight and get that I could hang out with Dave and Greg. (They both cheated on their wives) but I am not like that.

The conversation ended there....
Am I a fool? Why am I having such a hard time with the fact that she made the decision to cheat but "can't promise anything" to me?

Is it normal to feel so worthless in your spouse’s eyes? So...take it or leave it...

I have done so well in detaching but I guess I have not. It's almost like I don't want to even try anymore if it is just wasting both our times........

I made another reservation for Nov 21-23

Not sure if I want to keep it..

does anyone see any signs in that cov. that I can't?

Later
Me

And if I claim to be a wise man, well
It surely means that I don't know