Signs to say WAW woke up?

[dday101798]

Thanks AmyC

Well, she says now she will have papers together on Monday, so we'll see what happens with that, I highly doubt that will happen.

I received a e-mail from my little half sister this morning. I should say, I come from a broken family, my father walked out, and my half sisters are in a broken one too as their mother walked out on them. My sis gave me a real slap in the face and outlined what she went through as a result of the "divorce" (can't call it one when he was still married to mother nearly 20 years later) and reminded me of what I have and am going through. It reminds me you end up with negativity towards one parent or another, or in some cases as mine, both.

So I called W and left a voice mail reminding her again that this effects the kids FOREVER and that eventually they will figure out who did what and develope their own feelings about it from there. I also had no choice but to get off my chest that due to what she did to me this week, I am consumed by the feeling of her being a selfish, manipulative cold heareted liar, and I hate her for making me feel that way because I don't want to.

I know, wrong thing to do, but for me and through my counseling, I need to get things out and not bottle them up as I used to do and played a part in this situation (anger issue). Otherwise, they fester or fueled a explosive blow out on a innocent person.

IF and when she presents these papers, I will sit on them, tell her we should spend some time away with minimal contact as needed and think. Either way, yes, I have to go dark, pitch black dark before I end up setting off another land mine and make things worse and drive her away more.

I'd love to say I don't want to "time" this, but I'm sure you understand the amount of humiliation this causes me on a daily basis, I can't go anywhere without somebody asking me about it. And, even worse, she is still on my insurance, and that is a fightening feeling.