For the Guy with Kids and a WW Dix-Sept

[hopeful4her]

beej, towards the end, I started to talk to her about reacting. I had mentioned how I always try to keep it civil with her. A friendly tone, but that she is up and down. Up and down. She was quiet for a minute and said "Isn't that how I've always been?"
I agreed with her. "Yes. That's just you."

At the end, we were talking and I mentioned that I lost my temper, but that were humans. She agreed and said that it happens to all of us. I told her that I was also a man and reacted that way. She said she knew.

Like I said, we spoke on a lot of things. I'm sure they'll come to me the more I think about it or post.

I'm not sure I can keep up my fight. I'm going to get to that place again. She is right. I am only hurting myself.

The conversation ended like they almost always do. A kind of peace. If she were here in person, we may have even hugged.

I just don't think she has it in her right now. I told you...I could be looking at years down the road. Not sure I can actually make it that long.

And I don't take what she says to heart...

it STABS me in the heart.