God grant me the patience and the strength...8

[theotherhalf]

an2m,
I understood completely. And I do see things clearly. And your right they did make great points. I agree with them 100%. I want to stop my H from using me. It's high time he gets off this fence and decides what he wants out of life. If we keep on like this we will end up hating each other and I don't want that to happen.
But he isn't ready to make that decision yet. So what do I do about it?

Lets back up a bit. Maybe I never should have said here that I was NC with him. That is impossible in our sitch. What I should have said is I've stopped all pursueing. That I'm leaving him alone and letting him go. That I'm dropping the rope.

an2m, I really am not a pathetic stupid woman. I REALLY am frustrated and feel like I am boxed in with no where to go.