Well they say " money cant buy you love " and aint that true.
Hmmmm I am dbing very well. I am not sure yet if it is in the best interest of my M. Although H seems happy and more relaxed but other than the incident 3 days ago - nothing. I leave the calling up to him and today for instance he called once. Work related and necessary. I was unable to chit chat as I was dealing with customers, so I cut him short and I never got a chance to call back.
It is Friday night right now and we have a long weekend. Most friends have taken the oppotunity to get away on short break. Not my H. S20 complained that he was not seeing enough of his dad. My H response ' well come help me paint' S20 not impressed. He wanted to play golf etc.
Did I ever mention that H was a work alcoholic and to me this was the cause of my emotional withdrawal from him. He always promised me more time soon. Soon never came. I waited 15 years that I can recall being unhappy. All I wanted was him.
Tonight I have to consider if 'I am flogging a dead horse '
Would he ever change ?
How do I help my son. I don't want to see him become more and more removed from his dad. At least when he was at home he had nights with him. Now he does not and his father cant hear his cry for help, just like he never heard mine.
