Ali--you are so sweet to worry about the terms that H uses. However, really, truly, "sillyness" and "dorky" are some of the sweeter terms of endearment that we use, and I called him silly earlier on IM myself. Sure there is the possibility that for him there is deeper meaning behind the words, but for the moment I am going to take these things as positives as they are terms that we used much before the bomb too.
Opt--thanks! I will be the one to hang in there. I know that H would give up if given the opportunity, but he is not going to get the opportunity :). I am not sure on the timeline for this really. He did say that he has been unhappy for at least a year, and this seems to make sense when I look back at certain things that should have been clues, had I been more aware.
All--after I posted this last night H continued to IM me (I deflected R talk a couple of times), and in fact started talking about his high cholesterol again. He said it was one of those "hmm" moments. I think he was going to say more, but then I had to leave with my friend so told him to have a good night. Well I left my phone at work by mistake, and I had a very strong feeling that he was going to contact me last night. I was right. I got to work and had a text from him at 11 PM saying good night, and that he was feeling a little bit sick. It has been a long time since he texted me good night, and telling me how is feeling is a good sign too I believe. I think maybe this high cholesterol thing has shaken him. The doctor said if he kept going this way he would need heart surgery in 10 years.
So trying not to have too many specific expectations, but I do feel like something shifted when he went to the doctor. Also, one of the R talk things I deflected yesterday was around me staying at my friend's house. He asked "are you sure we're not burdening X with our situation?" I just answered, "all is well, no worries", then talked about something else. A part of me thinks that he could be coming around a bit. If I had let that conversation continue, it could have been interesting, but he needs to learn appropriate IM etiquette :).
OK I need to get some work done today!
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Me:34 H:36 M:5 years T: 8 years Bomb: 07/17/08 I want to be separated for 6 months--I don't know what I want the outcome to be S 07/28/08-11/08/08 Living together ~7 months D Possibly busted?!?!!!
