well...im moving into full negotiation of mediation with W of D on the final segment.
my emotions just totally suck right now...this isnt what i want...
this is the worst night emotionally I have had in quite some time. I loved my W. This isnt what I want.
I havent talked to her for several weeks. she sent me an email scorching me because my L asked her L what year her car was. it's all my fault of course. I didnt ask for any of this. she is so screwed up. I just wish she was who she was a couple years ago. she's messed up and a couple people helped her get that way.
there's a picture in my office of her that I carried around in my wallet for a long time. I loved my W a lot. she loved me. I wish we had that back.
