Well, had another weird afternoon. I know I shouldn't get into the email wars with H, but I did it again, although it wasn't really wars more like discussing stuff. He was rude at one point to me, and I emailed back that he was being rude and it wasn't called for. I've tried to be nice & polite with him and I would like the same from him. He stopped being rude at that point, that was at the start of his emails.
He was bringing up the past and telling me why D is great: it's helped me with my depression, and he's a (sober) alcoholic and has lots of problems (understatement of the year huh?). I said those are something he should address in IC whether he is married to me or not. They won't just disappear or whatever.
And my depression is not better because of the divorce which he claims, but because I got therapy, ADs, and really worked on that. He said if we weren't divorcing I would have backslid and I wouldn't have been able to keep my changes going like I have. I said no, I won't b/c I know what I need to do: spend time with friends, GAL, AD's, exercise, and all the other stuff I've learned this past year.
He sent me almost 20 emails today. Yeah, and I emailed him about half of that. After I pointed out he was being rude to me in one email, he wasn't after that, just going into all the stuff about the past but then he said well of course the past doesn't matter. And I said well obviously it still bugs you or you wouldn't bring it up a lot!!!
Anyway, bring out the 2x4s I know they're coming! I just felt a certain amount of closure today that I haven't felt. He kind of said our M is over & I'm done in December, and today was good for me in feeling like there was some closure to it. I stood up for myself, told him how I felt. I feel like I've said everything I need to. Karen
