Can't they chill and let me be free?

[Sugar and Spice]

Hey guys, today is definately better than the last couple of days.

Tuesday night I get a phone call from H that his car was hit. So I ask what happened and he tells me that he was sitting in his car by a park...so I interrupt to ask which park (I already know) and he tells me it the park by the Trolls house. They were sitting in his car and some girl was backing her moms truck out of the driveway and smashed into the read quarterpanel of his car. They are uninsured. GREAT!!!!! So he calls me to whine about it. Being the unsympathetic b*tch I am, I said, "well, I can't help but think if you weren't in this situation, that this might not have happened." So he gets super-pissed. "You can think that way if you want!" Ummm, yeah thats pretty much what I think about it! So he ends up coming over here so I can take pictures of the damage and hes trying to touch me and stuff and I told him to back off. Then he can't understand why I'm like that. He wasn't doing anything (WTF????) and its not like I don't know.... WHATEVER!!! I just told him that leaving her and coming over trying to be with me, wasn't gonna happen. He was here for quite sometime and R talk started.

I told him that it hurts that he tells me what he thinks I want to hear. That he spends time with the person that he chooses and its not me and he said he didn't believe that (huh?).

Apparently he has told his C that he wants to work through "this" and end up coming home and this time his C asked him how much time we spend together and he said none and the C said that this was NOT GOOD. Anyway, he is still a mass of contradictions and I'm just getting so tired.

I don't know what do to or think anymore, I just wish he could/would be honest with me, but how can he when he isnt honest with himself. I told him its confusing for him to say that he loves me and wants to come back here one day and the next talk about "if I don't come home."

So that was the last drama. Going to 6 Flags tomorrow with the kids, MIL and the cousins to ride coasters 'til someone pukes.