my story

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So I don't see how this will ever get better. When ever we get into a conversation, about seemingly anything I get emotional, then he gets defensive and tells me I am not his problem, he doesn't have to worry about my feelings any more, he is just straight with me and that is that.

Tonight he picked up the kids, I was telling him about our sons doctor's appointment, and what happened and what the doctor said, and he was walking around and walking out the door, I was following along, then I got fed up with him walking away and turned and went back into the house, we didn't finish the conversation. Once inside I got mad because I felt like he needs to not walk away from me when we are discussing the kids. I went out and confronted him, he got pissy and claimed it was all in innocence and he was just trying to get the kids ready, and I said you don't need to act like I am evil incarnate, and he said I don't I have been respecting you and I talk to you, but I don't have to worry about your feelings and I am not going to tell you you aren't that every week, I told you and I am not going to do this. He was incredibly defensive, and he was yelling at me, he made me feel like the worst person on earth. I have been very accomodating to him, I let him pretty much do what ever he has wanted to do in regards to this whole separation, move when he wanted, held onto his dog despite the incredible stress it was putting on me. yada yada yada, and all he can do is throw in my face that he isn't worried about my feelings and he isn't my buddy, yeah I got that. But I thought his goal was to be friends so the kids would have that, he seems to not want that, that is the vibe I am getting from him. He shows no interest in my life what so ever.

I hurts, and it makes me sad, and it makes me hate him for this whole mess. I am trying to be nice and take the high road, and he is throwing it in my face.