Caught H on the phone with Ms. New York purely by accident. He was on the phone with her and I asked him a question. He was supposed to have visited her this month but cancelled his trip. She lost it. Having enough of his lies and things seemed to have ended btwn. them. Great, right. Not so much.
Cut to Mexico. Instead of visiting Ms. New York he went to visit Ms. Mexico. With each EA things seem to get more intense. EVERY NIGHT he sits right in front of me texting and IM with her ALL NIGHT. They talk about being together and starting a life. I'm trying to hard to let go. I have been GAL like crazy, being his friend, trying to be the more attractive option and.......nothing.
In January it will be six months since papers were filed (by me for legal sep. he requested a D) and he fights me on everything no matter how much I comprimise.
Just going crazy. Everytime I see him on the computer I want to take a hammer to that darn thing. How did my loving faithful husband become this monster. He makes me sick so why can't I let go or get through to him. I'm right here and they are thousands of miles away. He admitted to me the other day that he hadn't forgiven me for leaving. I don't know that I will ever break down that wall.
Posts Role Reversal(original) WAW now LBS part I & II WAW now LBS part III(current) T: 9 yrs M: 8 yrs WAW: Sep 06-Jul 07 LBS: Sep 07-pres.
