I just got back from dinner with H and my inlaws, we had a lovely evening...just chit chatting and having good conversations. Nothing about 'us', no pressure, just a truly nice and friendly evening out. To be honest, I think H felt more uncomfortable than I did...(I felt bad about that).
I think I tried my best to look good. Dressed nicely, had my hair loose and very feminine, good make up (I never wear much) to be honest....if he can't see what a great person was sitting there, then it's truly his loss. (Not that I think I'm so great, but I do think that he left a good and kind person).
I'm going to sleep now as I have to wake up early to make breakfast for everybody ! Take care xxx
Love to you all and thank you for still dropping by with such encouragement. Even on the 'ups' it still feels good to hear that you're going in the right direction !
xxxxxx
Love Cinders xxx
"In the depths of my winter, I realized there is within me an invincible summer" Albert Camus
The Bomb: 08/05 H moves out: 06/2006 H moves back: 01/07 & Out again: 01/07 H moves back: 03/08 & Out again: 04/08 H moves back: 05/09 & Out again: 07/09 Divorced 08-12 Kids: 22, 20, 19
Glad your dinner went well with h and the in-laws. I am glad you looked great sitting there, too. And I hope you were wearing some great perfume, too.
The Bomb: 08/05 H moves out: 06/2006 H moves back: 01/07 & Out again: 01/07 H moves back: 03/08 & Out again: 04/08 H moves back: 05/09 & Out again: 07/09 Divorced 08-12 Kids: 22, 20, 19
Hi Cinders! Distances are traveled best in steps not leaps. Your steps are consistent and true.
I am so proud of you.
Little steps backwards again...H seems as if ow is putting pressure on him. She probably didn't like what happened last night - H going out to dinner with his parents and me. H was supposed to pick the kids up at the hockey tonight but he called saying that there was too much traffic and that he'd pick them up at my house after the hockey practice. I was disappointed but didn't let him know. He came in and got into an argument with D9 about her report card. I tried to help out in the argument and H got annoyed, told me that he wanted to say something, (but he had been talking ALL the time) so I said, "NO, I'm talking now let me finish"...well, he got annoyed at me. I thought of apologizing, (as usual) but decided to just not say anything anymore about it. They left, D9 angry at H and the others happy. It was hard as a mom....but I'm trying to let it go.
I think ow is putting pressure on him as he now told me that he couldn't stay for pizza at our house because he had lots of food in the house (they hardly ever do !) and when he came over, he seemed again, in more of a hurry to leave than usual. I really think that she is pushing.
Oh well, it's probably not even important.
Love Cinders xxx
"In the depths of my winter, I realized there is within me an invincible summer" Albert Camus
And GOOD JOB standing up for yourself and make yourself heard. Good job!!! Let him get annoyed at that, he'll get over it. And he will realize that you are you, a person to be valued.
