Havent heard from him now for a couple of weeks. He did eventually text me asking if I was "free" on Sunday morning -presumably for a chat. I said I was away and would text him in the week. (week before last) But somehow I couldnt do it.Seems Ive gone dark without meaning to, or planning to.Dont know what to say to him.I think about him daily,and hope so much he is beginning to find himself.No word on divorce-he doesnt want it and nor do I. Dont know if he is still involved wih OW.Weve been separated now for 18 months.My feelings for him are still as strong but I am living without him and surviving. If his next voluntary maintenence payment comes through on 6th November I will send him a thank you card. My gut feeling is to let him alone right now. I know he is very curious about my new house.Sometimes I feel that I am "Getting a life" right out of my marriage and that scares me.Its so sad after 29 years together.
