BBJ....man I hope this comes out right....WE deserve so much more than what our WASs have to offer right now.
I am sure you will find that road...it may or may not go through Dan. In all honesty, I am going to sound like Kalni's girlfriends (and some of my buddies)....not sure that is good for you to hear right now....so I'll wait a few days.
I know this is probably engulfing your every thought right now and there is nothing anyone can say to make it better. Just know that you are not alone...many of us have gone through this...it feels awful....it WILL get better.