LWB, I too never wished death on my H, but have often thought that D is more painful. It hurts knowing they chose to leave us! You are such a wonderful person. If you can get that "pest" out of your hair, you will have it made. You have many good things ahead of you, I just know it!
Glad you had fun at Boo at the zoo.
Life's challenges are not supposed to paralyze you, they're supposed to help you discover who you are. -- Bernice Johnson Reagon