A Rough Year - Still!

[MT35]

WOW, hope, I feel for you. I hate it cause I feel like it takes the wind out my sails when he does those complete turn arounds. I know I am so very lucky that my H doesn't call me names or really yell and scream. I know I would lose it worse than I am now.

I have so much respect for you hope for how you handled yourself. You have such grace under pressure. Why does something so trivial set them off so? A freaking kitty playing with cat nip.

I know the pull backs are expected, but how it could just happen so fast for you that amazes me. I haven't been doing this long enough to really get anything they do. I must say though you did such a great job with your reactions to him! YOU ARE AWESOME!!!

I really don't see how people can afford any large vehicles anymore! When some of the Cadillac Escalades are $75,00 or more. I would need to live in it!!

Hope, make it a good day! I wish I had better words of encouragement. Just think positive, and keep with you what a nice time you had last night!

[1hope]

Thanks Kel, I will.

No, we didn't buy the truck. I think it will be sitting on that lot for quite a while. My H and I were hoping that they would come down on it a whole lot more that they did. It is the end of the model year, and this is Michigan, afterall. A glut of new vehicles sitting around in a depressed economy you know. We giggled about it all the way home. The car salesman didn't even try all that hard. The finance manager came over and sat down with us and said, so.... you're NOT planning on taking this baby home tonight? It was all we could do not to laugh out loud. We'll see what happens. We know that we will end up with some sort of a payment, but it sure won't be anything like that.

Yes, the C word...it's a good thing that I had my duck suit on this morning. As soon as he said it, I actually had the vision that I was a teacher, and I had a 7 year old boy in front of me tyring to get sent to the principle's office. You poopy face!

Oh well.

Prior to this all starting this morning he had asked me to come to his job site today and check out the difficult digging job that he has been doing. I have a couple ofhours yet to decide if I am still going to go or not. He was so ridiclous this morning that I won't have any problem stoping by for a quick visit and even taking him a sandwitch since I know he has no lunch.

[1hope]

You always make me feel good MT. I will sure try. We did have such a good time last night that I think I am still insulated from his behavior this morning.

[MT35]

Hope,
That would be so nice of you if you were to bring him a sandwich since you know he doesn't have anything when you stopped by.

[kelaaron]

Hope,

I want you to do me a favor. I don't know exactly how spiritual you are but please do this for me. You can look up on the internet a way to do it. It is called sage smudging. You go to a metaphysical store and buy either a sage stick or loose. Mine was only 6 dollars. You say a prayer of protection, ask for the white light to surround you, and then you light the sage and try your best to get it to smolder. Sometimes you have to light it a few times. You start with your feet asking for all negative energies to be removed by the power of God. Then you go around each door, to the corner of each room, then turn in a circle in the center, continuously asking for all negative energy and entities to be removed. When you are done, put the sage out, say a prayer of thanks, open the house so the smoke and negative energies can leave. You will probably be tired afterwards. Also burining sage smells a little like pot so you will probably want to burn some candles afterward. Sit and relax for a while. Don't forget to open cabinets and closets and drawers. It will help.

My house is so much lighter. When MIL left last year, it was like a cloud was lifted but with everything going on, MLC, my depression, there was still a lot of negative here. I don't really know how I missed it to begin with. I have always been very intuned to energies in places. I think because the shift was so great at first that I just assumed that was all of it. It will also help with the cancer. I know it sounds really stupid to some people, but a friend of mine does her house after our friend who is going through chemo leaves.

[1hope]

Ok. I'll do it. I don't know if we have a metaphysical store around here, but I'll look. I'm close to the college campus, so I'm sure there is something.

I have always believed myself to be pretty spiritual. However, I have always been more intune to energy from people, not places.

It is interesting that you have asked me to do this. H and I acquired our home in a very unusual way, it is a verrrrry long story, but during the past year I began to wonder if there was something more that was adding to the MLC.

Can you tell me, Why does your friend smudge after your chemo friend leaves?

[WCW]

Ah, the ML trigger. So sorry (((1hope))). Remember that he is angry at himself for enjoying you and your body even though he tells you that he can't stand it. He is as confused as ever and he is angry about not being in control of himself.

When H spews his verbal abuse can you just calmly respond and say 'I will not take your tongue lashings' and walk away? Don't fuel him by listening or giving any response.

Get on the high road and stay on it. Follow thru with those plans to visit your H's worksite today. Take him a tasty sandwich made of crunchy peanut butter. Add humor if you think it will work and also leave a note saying that you are looking forward to more smooth spots than all the bumps but he plans the route!

kelaaron, sage eliminates negative vibes? does that count for sagebrush too? My H loves the smell of sagebrush!

[kelaaron]

She feels that any residule energy left by the cancer or sick friends negativity could attach itself to her, as the energy will attach to the vibrations of others, so she removes it. You will probably be able to find something, if not you could order online.

People leave their energy everywhere. While they are alive and after they die. So it will remain in the places you go, just like a bacteria or virus. And no it is not witch craft. These are actually practices that have even been mentioned in the Bible.

You don't have to be particularly religious, but I know, especially with what you went through, that you believe there is something more out there. I don't think too many people can survive a horrible illness and believe otherwise.

It is funny you say that about your house. I wish I could come walk through it as I have always been more intune with places. Shortly after I moved to Florida, I went with friends (I was a teenager at the time) to an old abandoned house. They just wanted to show me the hangout with the freaky reputation. Well I didn't know all about the house at the time, but I walked in and walked out. It was pure evil. Later I found out about the history of the house, a horrible kidnapping and rape, satanic riutals. Since, the county has torn the house down to keep vagrants out but you still can't drive by where it was without the dreadful feeling. I can't describe it more than that. You can also do it in the barn, just walk through it. After see how you feel. See if H's spewing doesn't calm down a little.

[kelaaron]

Oh the catnip, I almost forgot, it acts on cats like coke does to people. No addiction though. So small amounts occasionally but I would definately keep it up where he can't get it. Funny though because of the 4 that I had until recently, only one even liked it and she goes beserk!!!!!!!!!!

It won't hurt them though

[Babygirl]

hey namesake! so He ML to you then goes crazy, hmmmm guilt mayebe? When H called me that last year round thanksgiving, I am not proud but I punched him! betcha he wont say that to me again lol! i hate when its all good, and then BOOM its crazy for no reason at all, I try to remember its him, not me. even tho they spew thier ignorance on us.

you can probably get sage other places too. I do beleive in it completely!!

its dang cold and windy here too!
lots of hugs sweetie!