Thank you both Dawn and Kelaaron for your thoughtful responses. I am trying to stop chasing H. At our last meeting, we agreed to spend time together as friends but I am resolved to let him contact me first, even if he never does. I know he knows I will always be there and believes I will only wait so long before reaching out. I will not do it.
I guess I am really not ready to even consider that there might be someone else, it is just more than I could bear right now. Other than his departure, there have been none of the traditional signs of an affair or even a friendship with another woman.
