Oh Hope, I'm sorry. His verbal tirades are just horrible. My H usually refrains from a lot of the name calling but I think that has a lot to do with S around. For the last year I have been hearing "some days I'm so into us and others I just want to be alone" I think that is telling a little. They just don't understand it. They try and it doesn't work. So they try something else and it doesn't make them feel any better either.

So I take it no truck. My God, that truck payment would be my mortgage, including taxes and insurance. Do they think people can really afford that crap? When we bought H truck, we had $12000. We were looking at used trucks. One place wanted us to put the 12000 as a down payment and then pay 450 a month for five years. I almost died. We never did find out the asking price for the truck. We went elsewhere and paid 12000 cash for his truck no payments and it is better than the one we had been looking at. But it can be a fun thing to go looking.

I know you were expecting a pull back and I'm sorry it happened so quickly. Our latest was also after sex. You know that. I just don't know what to think. I too wish I could get H to DR. AD's would be a big help I'm sure. I think so much more clearly now. Not that I don't have moments, but they are true moments not being overwhelmed. And the C word. What a jerk. Sorry. I think most women hate that word. I have used it twice and both times I have really had hate in my heart for the person I was talking about. Have a good day. Take care of Hope and protect your heart.

If you focus on the past, you ruin the future. You can only live for today.