I was reading back on my older piecing threads looking for my posts about my wedding ring. One thing that did jump out at me was my pursuit of W, seems quite obsessive at times but it does shows I care, probably more scared of losing her which in turn may spark some of her negative reactions. So I need to throttle back, cool my ardour, and try to find the true romantic in me.
Anyway the real reason for this post is about the wedding ring, I think I've posted earlier that I decided that I wouldn't wear my old Wedding ring again cos it symbolised my old M which W had disregarded and where I had been badly hurt. But I turned the whole thing on its head in my mind and thought that by me not wearing my ring it was showing W that I wasn't fully committed and was holding onto past events. Me not wearing the ring was a constant reminder to her that she had cheated and too be honest I think that was the effect I was trying to achieve. I think it was reading that last post from Rob that prompted me to think I need to let go of some things which I've been holding onto, cos in hindsight the not wearing the ring is a constant reminder to me that W had cheated, and as it says in my title I should be moving forward and not looking back, so I need to live up to that.
Well I've dug out my ring, it still fits, so I am gonna start wearing it, no grand gestures just put it on and get on with it. Once its on I hope there's gonna be no rings on, rings off hokey cokey, put it on and stick it on. Also I just felt a drop in the level of hurt that I feel and I'm ready to put it back on so that must be a good thing.
