Thanks Ellie and LL! I remember you telling me before, Ellie, about using a little humor and I did yesterday tell him I was going to need a kiss before I went to work cuz he was already up. He "acted" put out but he wasn't.
LL, past experience is that he really dislikes me bringing up this stuff. One of our big issues was my lack of confidence and his being tired of reassuring me every couple of months. And I know that is what this is--my feeling insecure and needing his reassurance. I actually didn't bring this up until this morning. I worked hard all day yesterday and evening to do other things to keep my mind from obsessing. So, I do feel good that I didn't give in to my feelings right away. I did, however, ask him this morning if he was still ok with his decision to get back together and that I was really enjoying our time together and enjoying some of the new things I have found for me to do. I knew he was going to be agitated and he was--but he wasn't angry. He said if he had a problem he would tell me (he's told me that about a million times now--where is my trust?) He said if he hasn't mentioned a problem then there isn't any and he is a happy camper. And he is even happier when I don't bring this sh*t up!
So I know what this was all about--my insecurity--and I fought with myself for a good 24 hours instead of giving in to myself immediately--which is a baby step for me. I'll get better at this right?
