I'm not sure where the dreams about the tornados came from. I think the ones about car accidents was because my dad and uncles were always involved with fast cars.
At that time seat belts weren't required in cars, and there were lots of shows on tv with crash dummies and the results in slow mo. I used to torture myself by watching those shows, then would wake crying in the night. My dad finally had to go out, buy and install seat belts in our car.
Now I still like to race, but I always buckle up!
Most of us are about as happy as we make up our minds to be.
hey name sake and life sake friend, saw what you said about life and death, wanted to hug you. I think its diff when you have had to stare it in the face. I am sorry we meet under our sad circumtances, but so glad to know theres someone out there who understands!! much love from the T with an I.
M 36 XH 34 3 children If a house is divided against itself, that house will not be able to stand. Mark 3:25 "your mood swings are giving me whiplash" twilight ALIVE FREE AND HAPPY 2010
Hi B/G, I have never written to you before and you were some of the one person that somehow would get along with LostPhil.Has he been in here lately???? Wonder how he is doing???? I dont know if he ever came back in here since he was hyper I guess is the word I am looking for. It tired me out just reading his posts..he sounded so bitter and sad and lost.... Just wondering if you kept up with him ...I pray that his children will recover from all this. They were the victims in this madness.... Have a great day and God bless you
M-53 H-46 M-24+YRS BOMB-10/14/07 2-S 2-D Grandkids-7 Greatgrand kid-1 He needs space... Wants to start fresh new life W O/W Moved in his O/W Oct.08
hey, yes he truly was lost, and I tried to get to him hard, for his kids, I havent seen him either, was thinking about him the other day, He made me practice patience, and not being judgemental, I pray for his children every single day!! god wish I was in Texas its freezing here lol!
M 36 XH 34 3 children If a house is divided against itself, that house will not be able to stand. Mark 3:25 "your mood swings are giving me whiplash" twilight ALIVE FREE AND HAPPY 2010
No kidding on the patience,I conversed with him a time or two and there was no reaching him,feel sorry for his kids.What they must have to endure.He seemed too... like he was trying to sound to ....I guess really educated or something.trying to impress us or something... all I wanted was for his children to be in a safe and loving place without any kind of drama.... because let me tell they had big time drama dont you think?
M-53 H-46 M-24+YRS BOMB-10/14/07 2-S 2-D Grandkids-7 Greatgrand kid-1 He needs space... Wants to start fresh new life W O/W Moved in his O/W Oct.08
hey name sake and life sake friend, saw what you said about life and death, wanted to hug you. I think its diff when you have had to stare it in the face. I am sorry we meet under our sad circumtances, but so glad to know theres someone out there who understands!! much love from the T with an I.
Much love to you from T with a Y! I agree about staring death in the face. It sure does make life all the more sweeter.
I am sure that we have been drawn here for a reason. You and all the others have made my days easier and almost sane again.
Woke up this morning to 32 degrees and HEAVY frost on the car windows. Somebody sait the possibility of snowflurries this weekend. ECH!!!!!!! I'm not ready!
Most of us are about as happy as we make up our minds to be.
Last night was wonderful. It didn't last long though.
We went and test drove the new truck. What a ride - truly a dream truck, but a nightmare price...$54K LOL! We could only get it down to $42K which would still make a payment pushing $900.00 Ummmmm, maybe we'll win the lottery this weekend?
The rest of the evening was wonderful. Stopped and got a quick dinner, then home for the night. It was my H of old. We laughed and joked and made plans for our future. He was making wonderful eye contact and even smiling.
He had brought some catnip home that he found yesterday on the job site. He carried it home in his lunch pail, and while we were watching tv he game some to our cat. We had fun watching the cat go crazy before we went to bed.
Then Today! You guessed it, he morphed into the alien while we were sitting in the hot tub. All because although I closed the door between the kitchen and the laundry room when we went out to the hot tub, I didn't pull it hard enough closed to make it latch. Our moose of a cat pushed it open. When we came in from our soak we saw that the cat had the rest of the catnip and was having a good old time with it all over the kitchen floor. I said oh, oh! And started to pick it up. My H flipped out, said that I am a controlling B!tch and never bother to listen to what he says. I tried to explain that I had closed the door but it must not have latched. He was off and running with his ranting so I just stopped talking.
After I got out of the shower and was doing my hair he started in on me again. He asked if I had thrown the catnip away after I had picked it all up, and I told him no. He yelled, ‘I TOLD YOU TO THOW IT AWAY!” He was so angry. I thought it was such a cool thing that he had done bringing it home for the cat, and we had such fun watching him last night, that I didn’t want to throw the stuff away. I had put it in the pantry on a tall shelf on the basement stairs. I knew the cat could not get it there, and I was hoping that my H would calm down and the anger would blow over. Nope. Now he started to tell me that I was a dumb C#*t, a stupid idiot and he wanted a D. I said, “Your’re calling me a C#*T over some catnip? He was totally acting like I let the cat get into it on purpose. He knows that I hate the C word, that’s a total foul in an argument as far as I’m concerned, and yet today he was repeatedly calling me that, just trying to hurt me. We ML last night for petes sake.
I held myself together. He left for work without another word, did not take his lunch, or thermos or water bottle. I had anticipated a draw back, but I had not figured on an alien abduction so early today after such a great night.
At least it was so wacky that I was easily able to not take it personal. Sure wish I could get him to talk to our doctor. Sigh.
Most of us are about as happy as we make up our minds to be.
Oh Hope, I'm sorry. His verbal tirades are just horrible. My H usually refrains from a lot of the name calling but I think that has a lot to do with S around. For the last year I have been hearing "some days I'm so into us and others I just want to be alone" I think that is telling a little. They just don't understand it. They try and it doesn't work. So they try something else and it doesn't make them feel any better either.
So I take it no truck. My God, that truck payment would be my mortgage, including taxes and insurance. Do they think people can really afford that crap? When we bought H truck, we had $12000. We were looking at used trucks. One place wanted us to put the 12000 as a down payment and then pay 450 a month for five years. I almost died. We never did find out the asking price for the truck. We went elsewhere and paid 12000 cash for his truck no payments and it is better than the one we had been looking at. But it can be a fun thing to go looking.
I know you were expecting a pull back and I'm sorry it happened so quickly. Our latest was also after sex. You know that. I just don't know what to think. I too wish I could get H to DR. AD's would be a big help I'm sure. I think so much more clearly now. Not that I don't have moments, but they are true moments not being overwhelmed. And the C word. What a jerk. Sorry. I think most women hate that word. I have used it twice and both times I have really had hate in my heart for the person I was talking about. Have a good day. Take care of Hope and protect your heart.
If you focus on the past, you ruin the future. You can only live for today.
