HTTE, The tough road...Facing the big D

[HopefultotheEnd]

I still feel surprisingly good considering I havn't a clue what I'm doing. W and I had some polite family business texts yesterday and all went well. I let her know that I would come home late. She texted me a thanks for letting her know.

I wasn't sure what to expect when I returned home. She was in the guest bed this time. I went in there to say goodnight and ended up sleeping next to her. It wasn't an accident.

In the morning I woke her by rubbing her back and she asked me to rub the back of her neck. When I told her she really needed to get going she said, "I know but you keep rubbing me."
That was nice to hear.

I have no expectations but I do have some hope left. I feel as if I'm going to be ok no matter what happens. That's why I was willing to take a chance. That and because I wanted to.

Do I know if it was the right move...? No. But I got a good nights rest and some good perspective.