I definitely wouldn't cancel it. Even if you guys do come to the conclusion that it's over and done, I think you can benefit from navigating through that in C rather than on your own. She can probably help you both deal with things, too.
FB is FaceBook.. yes kinda like MySpace. If you ever set an account up there let me know...
Yes, I'm a total wimp about the cold too! I was laughing thinking here I am complaining about it being 60 in the house this morning.. for a lot of people that's probably warm.
You might be able to find that fire alarm owner's manual online too. I find all kinds of manuals and such that way! If you know the maker/model # I bet you can track it down.
Doing anything fun today?
Me 35, H 38; Together 13.5 yrs, M 7 Bomb 1 10/07/06 Sep'd 1/14/07 - 4/15 Piecing: 4/07 - 9/07 Bomb 3 10/11/07: Never loved you, let's separate 2/08 slowly improving 7/08 Piecing (7/25/08 rings back on!!) Current thread
Nothing fun today...D and I plan on watching a new Disney movie on the Disney channel later. That "our thing"
Anyway, I'm doing okay just hanging around home. I think I may clean out my closet...all my clothes are too big and instead of saving them like I always do when I lose weight I'm throwing them out!
Finally had a chance to get back on! Hope you and D enjoyed the movie.
I did lots of chores and then clothes shopping Sunday.. gotta love rewards points, I had $100 gift card for Macy's so got a nice free shopping spree.
This week.. back to the grind again!
Are you and H going to C today? Or is that tomorrow?
Me 35, H 38; Together 13.5 yrs, M 7 Bomb 1 10/07/06 Sep'd 1/14/07 - 4/15 Piecing: 4/07 - 9/07 Bomb 3 10/11/07: Never loved you, let's separate 2/08 slowly improving 7/08 Piecing (7/25/08 rings back on!!) Current thread
Counseling is tomorrow...it should be interesting. After our little "issue" on Friday I haven't had much contact with with H other than yesterday when we "got into it". Convo started bad, the middle was bad as H said "you can cancel the counseling session because I'm not going", but ended on an okay note with H saying he would meet me at counseling on Wednesday. All the badness was related to me expressing to him how it hurt that he didn't seem to care about mine or d's well being on Friday when he refused to come over and help with fire alarms. His response was "if I didn't care I wouldn't have volunteered to go to counseling with you". Funny...I don't recall him volunteering, but who cares right? At any rate, I'm in a good place right now....I'm trying to stop putting pressure on myself to "get him to come home" I can't do that...it will have to be a decision he makes for himself and it's not something I can hurry along. I need to concentrate on being okay with our without him....
good thoughts, keep it up, I am working on the same thing so I know how hard it is. Go into your meeting with an open mind and don't jump to conclusions.
Me 41 H 42 DD 11 DS 8 M 18 bomb 8/3/06 separating 9/18/08
Good luck tomorrow CW! Yes.. no pressure on him OR on you. Well, pressure yourself to live a good happy life, ut don't make that dependent on him OR on your perceived "ability" to get him back.
Me 35, H 38; Together 13.5 yrs, M 7 Bomb 1 10/07/06 Sep'd 1/14/07 - 4/15 Piecing: 4/07 - 9/07 Bomb 3 10/11/07: Never loved you, let's separate 2/08 slowly improving 7/08 Piecing (7/25/08 rings back on!!) Current thread
Therapy was excellent today! I feel much better. We discussed incident on Friday with the fire alarms and I think C made H see how my feelings could get hurt from his reaction. He told her that he "thought we were making headway" and then the fire alarm thing happened and it made him think we took 20 steps back and should possibly consider not speaking to one another unless it was in regard to D. Not really sure what to think about that, but at the end of the session she asked H again if he wanted to continue with sessions to "see where this goes" and he said yes. Sooooooo...another session next week. When we left session tonight, I told him thank you and put my hand out for him to shake it and he said I was being dumb and pulled me in for a hug. I truly have no idea what is going to happen, but for the fourth day running I think I'll be okay no matter what
C said our homework is to continue avoiding talk about the past and to decide whether or not to trust the other's reasons for why intimacy was lacking (H insists I had to have been having an affair AND I WAS NOT!).
That's wonderful, CW! I'm so glad you went ahead with the appointment.
Try not to use the appointment against each other as a "weapon" or manipulation thing in the future (I know you can only control your side of it, but hopefully doing so will help lead your H down that path.. ).
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Not much to report...still feel okay about my life.
H is very confusing. I sense in him that he wishes he wanted to be back with me...if that makes sense, but feels like he can't go back after the decision he made and is too afraid things would go back to the way they were.
He dropped D off yesterday and I flirted a bit...he responded by basically saying he wanted to "do me" every which way from Sunday but sex confused him. He said he "wants" me all the time, and misses me sometimes but doesn't know if the love he has for me is the "right love". Those comments came out of left field...totally unsolicited by me since I was keeping things light with just being flirty and when he said them I was speechless but could feel a R talk coming on (and he hates that) so I kind kind of giggled and said "ummmm...wow...well you could have stopped at the I always WANT you part" and winked at him. I seriously didn't know how to take the comments or what to say. He also said, during the conversation, that I looked REALLY nice. That made me feel good. About two hours later he called to say he had mowed my Dad's lawn and that they had a nice chat.
1. You'll never figure it out, so don't bother wasting your time trying. Focus that energy on you instead.
2. Whatever IS going on probably changes constantly (what's in your head does, right?) You'll get at least some sense of the overall picture in your MC though, so just leave it for there.
Is MC today again?
Me 35, H 38; Together 13.5 yrs, M 7 Bomb 1 10/07/06 Sep'd 1/14/07 - 4/15 Piecing: 4/07 - 9/07 Bomb 3 10/11/07: Never loved you, let's separate 2/08 slowly improving 7/08 Piecing (7/25/08 rings back on!!) Current thread
