I do not "smell" other woman in my present situation, either. And no comment on my choice of words, you know what I meant...
I agree with you, Kalni. He has not been able to decide. He knows he hates our marriage as it stands. He knows he cannot bear another day to look into my eyes and see all the pain he has caused me. He does feel regret for it, yet he doesn't change his ways, so he is angry at himself. I don't think depression is causing his actions, I think his actions and choices cause him to feel depressed.
He thinks making this decision is better than making no decision. He is too afraid we will go back to how we were before, "nothing ever changes" is his mantra. So this will be a change, finally. Even if it is horrible it will be different than the horrible he is used to...
I am ready to be fed, wish I had the time to fly over. Maybe when I am on summer break (June 2009 still in the works??)
