MMF, Thank you again for your kind words. At this point I truly do not believe that my W is having a PA. I could be wrong, and I recognize that it may be. But like you, I think the EA can be more damaging. I have not cried in front of her or begged her back etc.. for more than two months. When I say I cry it is alone or to my dearest friends. I have been the rock that she needs and I am awaiting her to come back. My PMA is great this week and I hope it remains that way.

Today, was a very good day for us. She surprised me and came and met me for lunch with the kids. She called me several times and was pleasant and even made a few jokes. I know this may only last for the day, but I will take the good when it comes and enjoy it. Hour by hour. I refuse to be spiteful towards her and I will only treat her with respect. Like you said, I want to be able to look back and know I did everything I could to try and save us.

Bettou, I appreciate your response and I am glad I have someone else who is new to relate to. Feel free to contact me anytime and hopefully we can band together for strength. You hang in there too.

Tonight we are carving pumpkins and celebrating my birthday. My kids are everything to me now and it will be fun.

Thanks again all.


Married 10/12/2002
Me 35 Ring On
Her 29 Ring Off
D 4
S 2
Don't know if I am in love with you 10/7/08
Kinda Separated 10/7/08
EA/OM 6/6/08

my current thread: http://www.divorcebusting.com/forums/ubbthreads.php?ubb=showflat&Number=1623276&page=1&fpart=4